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Throughout these few months, I have been listening to different voices. Perhaps, just mostly it's just my mom telling me what I should do for my future, what degree I should enroll, what I should not do, blah blah blah. She went on and on, trying to rationally explain how her perspective suits my personality and my future well. Now, here's the problem. I don't even know what I want.
Fulfill dreams or give in to reality?
I have to confess though, I am quite a lazy person with short span of attention. I no longer retain interest when the topic becomes all flat and mundane. On the bright side though, it's that I could consistently find a bit of fun out of boring matters to entertain myself. So, I'd say that they sort of evened out. However, it would be rather challenging for me to keep finding that bright side on the current subjects I have to study. As you may have guessed, grades aren't really doing good at school.
Sometimes, I do admire people who have real passion on subjects that are considered as 'safe', 'realistic' (in terms of career) or more blatantly, 'money making'. For instance, they could convert their love for biology into a career of doctor. Isn't that great?
This is another page of some teenage babble, please don't take it so seriously.